Sinful Desire

Chapter 8-False Masks

Dinner was quite strained, for Charles at least. He had entered the dinning room later than usual and the only seat left, ‘Of course!’ he thought sadly, was right next to Kurt. He found himself sitting stiffly next to the blue mutant, offering a quiet hello to the assembled group. Logan frowned slightly at Charles from his seat down the table from the two. ‘Must not have talked to the fuzzy elf…’ He mused as he dug into his dinner.

Kurt gave the elder man a fake smile as he desperately tried to ignore his presence, which was impossible with him sitting next to him. ‘Ahh!! Thought he wouldn’t show up…’ He picked at his plate, unaware that someone at the table was staring intently at the two of them…

No one else at the table noticed their blank looks, or the uneaten food on their plates. Storm, Hank, and Logan began a conversation about the next danger room mission they should run the kids through tomorrow. Jean and Scott were talking animatedly with Kitty, Rogue, and Jubilee, about the upcoming dance at school, while Bobby, Spike and Ray were talking about a skateboarding contest they were entering next week. Even Rahne and Jamie were having their own quieter discussion at the end of the table.

“So?” Jamie was saying to the Scottish mutant sitting next to him. “What should we do?” He asked quietly.

“Ah don’ know…” Rahne whispered back. “But we should think o’ somethin’ quick…” She trailed off as Kitty asked her to pass the salt. Rahne complied, then continued eating, shrugging slightly at Jamie. “We’ll figure it oot…” Her friend nodded and dug into his food as well, effectively cutting off any more conversation for the moment.

Kurt pushed his food around on his plate, pretending to eat as his mind raced with confused thoughts. ‘Why…does my chest hurt so much? I shouldn’t..feel this way. I know he couldn’t...l-love me...like I want him to.’ Dinner passed quickly without any incidents. Kurt stood quickly, getting ready to head out of the room. Rahne nudged Jamie and gestured towards the blue mutant. He nodded and the two of them started arguing back and forth as they hurried towards where Charles was standing up.

Jamie broke into a jog, looking at Rahne as he did so. Both of them fake arguing with each other. Rahne gave Jamie a slight push causing the clumsy boy to run into Charles back, instantly splitting into several copies of himself. The combined weight of them knocking the older man off balance. He stumbled and fell over one of Jamie’s clones, ending up on top of Kurt.

“Ahh!” Kurt gasped as his head hit the floor with a crack. Charles winced at the sound, and braced his hands on either side of the younger mutant’s head.

“Are you alright?” The telepath asked, his breath tickling Kurt’s mouth. Kurt found his eyes drawn to Charles lips, they were so close, if he just moved up a little bit, they’d touch. ‘Why...why do I feel like I need to kiss him? It’s not fair!!’ He had to fight himself not to do that as Charles licked his lips before speaking again. “Kurt?” He asked softly, concern filling his voice. Kurt looked into his eyes, worry clearly evident, but there was another emotion behind that one. ‘I...can’t make it out...’

“I...I’m fine.” Kurt said gruffly, putting his mask back into place. “You...can get off me though...” Charles blinked as if he’d forgotten, then quickly pushed into an upright position, allowing Kurt to do the same.

“Ah...sorry.” He muttered, flushing with embarrassment. Standing up he offered Kurt a hand. The blue mutant took it hesitantly, flushing at the rush of emotions that ran through him at that simple touch as Charles hauled him up.

“Thanks...” Kurt muttered, keeping his head down as he headed out of the room. Charles watched with a hurt look on his face before he realized and made himself appear calm. Rahne tugged his arm suddenly.

“Ah...yes Rahne?” He asked, turning to look at the young girl. She tugged him down and whispered something in his ear. Charles blushed at what she said, he pulled back and gave a slight nod before slipping out of the room.

“So, what was that about?” Kitty asked Rahne.

“Nothing!!” The younger girl answered before running out of the room, Jamie (who had pulled himself back together) following close behind.

“Okay...” Rogue said to Kitty as everyone else started to leave the room. “That was really weird...”

“Yeah, I think we should figure out what’s going on!” Rogue grinned at her and quickly followed after Kitty as she headed in the direction Kurt and Charles had gone.

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Kurt hurried down the hallway to his room, trying to forget how close he had been to kissing Charles in front of everyone. ‘Why does he have to care?! It would be easier to stop thinking about him if he’d just stop caring about me!!’ Kurt had to stop moving as the tears blurred his vision. He leaned his head against the wall, crying quietly. He didn’t hear the approach of Charles until he was right next to him.

“Kurt, are you alright?” Kurt jumped at the sound of his voice, turning quickly and hurriedly trying to wipe the tears away.

“Go away!” He said, voice thick from his tears. “I don’t want to talk to you!!” Charles’ face twisted in agony, but he forced himself to reach out, placing his hand on Kurt’s shaking shoulder.

“Talk to me, tell me what did I do?” He asked softly, both unaware they had guests to their private conversation. Kurt tried to pull away, but Charles spun him around and backed him against the wall. He braced his hands on either side of Kurt’s head leaning closer so their faces were mere inches apart. “Tell me!!” Charles demanded, his voice dark and silky. Kurt shivered at the tone of his voice and the closeness of their bodies.

“I...I...” The blue mutant stuttered, swallowing hard as he concentrated on what he was saying.

“Do you hate me? Do you hate yourself? For what happened between us?”

“No!”

“Then what? Why are you avoiding me? Rahne told me you were crying earlier, after we talked. If you did regret what happened, why were you sad? Besides, you were the one who snuck into my room while I was sleeping. So tell me!” Charles growled, leaning forward to nip his ear gently. Kurt jolted at that action, heart racing frantically in his chest. The telepath moved closer, unable to stop himself from pressing his body against the younger mutant’s. “I could take the information, if I really wanted to. I won’t use my powers like that, but there are OTHER ways to get what I need.” He muttered, rolling their hips languidly together.

“You...you don’t understand!!” Kurt shouted suddenly, breaking out of his stunned silence and pushing the elder man away. Charles blinked rapidly at the change. “I...I love you!! And all you could ever want from me is sex!!” Kurt yelled, tears streaming down his face.

“What?” Charles gasped, stunned by the outburst. “Why would you think that?” He asked, reaching out to touch Kurt’s face. Apparently that was the wrong thing to say, because Kurt spun on his heel and ran into his room, slamming the door behind him. Charles stood their, looking like he’d just been slapped. “Fuck!!” He muttered darkly, leaning against the wall. “I always seem to say the wrong things, don’t I?” He questioned himself. Stuffing his hands into his pockets, he slouched down the hall to his room, shutting himself in.

“Wow...” Rogue muttered to Kitty. “A lot more’s goin’ on between them than ah thought, huh Kitty?” She turned to the younger girl in time to see her nod.

“Definitely!!” She agreed before tugging the older girl back the way they came, heading towards their room. “We have to find a way to help them out!” Rogue agreed and the two of them started working on a plan, unaware that two others were doing just that...

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