Sinful Desire

Soooo sorry about the long wait!! I’ve been very bad about updating a lot of my stories!! Just haven’t been in a writing mood lately!! Hope you like it!!


Chapter 7-Avoidance


Charles was trying to work on paperwork that needed to be done, but ended up staring blankly out the window for most of the morning, trying to figure out what was wrong with Kurt. Logan found him still staring blankly around lunch time. “Hey.” He said, moving to stand in front of the desk. Charles jerked around to face the other man, looking slightly sheepish.

“Oh, Logan...what do you need?” He asked, carefully schooling his face into the calm mask he always wore.

“I wanna ask ya something, and I want you to answer truthfully, alright?” The telepath hesitated before nodding slightly. “Do you like Kurt?” He asked, staring straight at the man behind the desk, gauging his reaction closely.

“Of course I do. Why would I not like one of my students?” Charles questioned. Logan rolled his eyes, crossing his arms across his chest, frowning at the telepath.

“That’s not what I meant. You KNOW how I meant it.” He growled, irritation evident in his voice.

“I...don’t see how that’s any of your business...”

“Don’t bullshit with me!! I’m not stupid!! I know something’s going on between you two. Now answer the damn question!!” Charles sighed heavily, dropping his head into his hands, feeling exhausted.

“Yes, I know what you meant...” He rubbed his face briefly, before moving his hands to look up at Logan. “I...like him...a lot more than I should...” He admitted softly, looking away in embarrassment.

“Do you want to start something with him?”

“What?” Charles asked, eyebrows rising in surprise.

“Do you want a relationship with him? Or just sex?” The telepath flushed at his comment, rubbing the back of his neck in embarrassment.

“Uh...Logan? Why are you asking me this?” He questioned, keeping his eyes firmly away from the other man.

“I wanna know if it’s serious. Because if it isn’t, and you keep this ‘thing’ you have with him up...and end up hurting the elf. You’re gonna have to answer to these!!” He said, sliding his claws out, pointing them slightly at Charles.

“I...I’m not really sure...” He started, frowning slightly as he thought. “I care about Kurt, a lot...and would never intentionally hurt him. I need to think over some things to make sure we BOTH are serious about a relationship. But considering he ran out this morning once he woke up, I don’t think he wants anything more...” He sighed, staring sadly at the desk in front of him. “I fear I drove him off...”

“Well, what did you do to make him run off?” Logan questioned, sitting on the edge of the desk.

“I woke him up by sucking him off...but I don’t see why that would make him upset...” He trailed off at the choking sound from Logan.

“Gah!! I didn’t wanna know that!!” He bellowed, jumping off the desk and quickly heading to the door. Charles laughed at his retreating back.

“You asked!!” Logan stopped and turned, flashing a grin at the telepath.

“Yeah I did. And don’t worry!! I’m sure the kid just needs some time ta figure things out, same as you.” Charles nodded slowly.

“I...suppose you’re right, Logan.” Logan gave a quick nod before slipping out of the room. Charles sighed slightly and started back on his paperwork, trying to push thoughts of Kurt out of his head for now.

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Kurt headed into the mansion after school, starting to head straight to his room. He wasn’t tired, but he hadn’t been able to concentrate on anything but Charles all day. ‘Ah!! Dumkomff!! Stop doing this to yourself!!’ He thought, berating himself as he moved down the hall. ‘You’re just going to hurt yourself more with this line of thought...’ Sighing heavily as he shoved his door open, tossing his bag on the floor. “Kurt?” He heard the soft voice behind him question.

“Damn it!” He muttered softly, turning slowly to face the person he was trying to avoid seeing.

“Are you alright?” Kurt kept his eyes off Charles’ face, ignoring his question. “Can we talk about...what happened?” Receiving no answer, the telepath moved into the younger mutant’s room, stopping in front of him. “Please Kurt? Tell me what’s wrong!!” Charles pushed the boy’s chin up, forcing him to look into his eyes. “Why won’t you tell me?!” His voice was pleading for an answer. He leaned foreward, brushing his lips lightly across Kurt’s. The younger mutant jumped back as if he were electrocuted, spinning around quickly, he failed to notice the pained look on Charles face at the rejection. Unknown to them, a pair of green eyes watched the scene intently from the open doorway.

“I...just...” Kurt shook his head quickly, his tail unwrapping from around his waist showing through the hologram that he hadn’t shut off yet.

“If...you regret...what happened last night...you just have to tell me...please?” Charles’ voice cracked on the last word, the calm mask he usually wore breaking as his lips trembled slightly. Kurt swallowed the lump in his throat, too upset himself to hear the change in the telepath’s voice.

“Yes...” He whispered, lying through the tears streaming down his face. “I...regret what we did and...I don’t want...to do it again...” Charles held back a sharp intake of breath at that, feeling as if a knife had sliced through his chest, leaving nothing but a bleeding wound that wouldn’t be healed easily...if it ever would.

“I see...” Charles said coldly, feeling his calm mask slip back into place. “I’ll just...leave you alone then. I’m sure we can...keep what happened separate from when we have to interact with each other, right?” He questioned softly, trembling with the effort to keep from breaking down.

“Of course...” Kurt responded, barely able to keep a sob back as he heard Charles turn on his heel and head out the door, shutting it harder than necessary behind him. He waited until he was sure he would be gone, Kurt threw himself face first onto his bed and sobbed harder than he had in a very long time...

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Charles strode quickly down the hallway, too upset to notice the presence following behind him. Hurriedly, he headed into his room, slamming and locking the door behind him. Leaning agains the wood, he let his mask slip completely, letting the tears stream down his face. “Why?” He questioned himself, letting his sadness take over. “I...should have stopped it...before it...we...” He stopped abruptly, running his hand over his face. “HE was the one who started it...and yet...” Charles sighed heavily, moving to sit on his bed. “I should have realized he would regret it...he’s just a boy. I should have known this would happen. And yet...why does it hurt so much?” His voice faltered and he found himself sobbing into his hands...

tbc


Damn!! This chapter was hard to write!! Please don’t hate me!! It WILL get better I promise!! It had to be done though, sorry!! How’d you like it? Any thoughts? Please review!! Oh!! I’m going to have some spoiler’s later, maybe not in the next chapter but soon!! Just thought I’d tell people ahead of time!!