Heart's Desire

Chapter 3-It shouldn’t be so complicated!!


Charles had wandered around the building in that damnable wheelchair, completely avoiding Logan as he struggled with the strange new feelings being around him evoked. He had skipped both lunch and dinner and was now on a balcony overlooking the island, breathing in the fresh air and sighing. “How am I supposed to act around him?” He questioned himself quietly. “I’ve been thinking about what happened with him earlier, all day...” he muttered, blushing at the memory.

Sighing heavily, he rubbed his face in irritation. He had never felt this strongly for anyone before, and he wondered how it could happen so quickly. He jumped slightly as a hand rested lightly on his shoulder. “Hello Charles, dear.” He heard the Irish lilt of his colleague and former lover. “Ah had a feelin’ ah’d find ya out here.”

“Hmmm…indeed.” He sighed slightly as he looked up at the stars. “I’ve always liked the view out here.” He commented with a smile. Moira squeezed his shoulder lightly.

“Aye, it is quite amazin’,” She replied, wrapping her arm loosely around his shoulders. “So…what’s wit’ ya and Logan, hmmm?” She asked casually. Charles blushed brightly at that comment, shrugging slightly.

“Nothing.”

“Uh-huh…yur a terrible liar, Charles Xavier! Ah know ya like him more than jus’ a friend!! Ya let him stay in bed wit’ ya.”

“I just didn’t want him to get a cramp from sleeping in that chair…”

“And ya helped him get rid of that erection.” Charles stiffened considerably at that declaration, his face turning even darker.

“That’s none of your business.” He muttered icily.

“Oh don’t get snippy wit’ me!!” She moved around him to cup his face in her hands and looking him in the eyes. “You listen to me! There’s somethin’ between you two, its so tangible ah could feel it this mornin’, and all day Logan has been wantin’ ta go ta ya but he knew ya were needin’ time to work this out by yerself.” Her voice softened as she continued her speech. “Ah know ya have been so lonely over the years, and now that ah see someone who can make ya happy, ah wan’ ya to pursue that. Everyone deserves ta be happy, even the most powerful telepath in the world.” Charles smiled at her, reaching up to take one of her hands to squeeze it lightly.

“Thank you, for everything Moira,” He said softly, kissing the back of her hand.

“Yur welcome, now go get yur man!” She leaned foreward to kiss him on the corner of his mouth, failing to see the door open at that moment. Logan’s eyes widened in shock as he saw Moira and Charles kiss upon stepping onto the balcony. It lasted only a minute before he was turning and hurrying down the hall. ‘Fuck!! I’m so stupid!’ He growled at himself as he found a random room, shutting himself in and locking the door. Leaning against it he tried to control how much it hurt to see them like that, even though he knew Charles didn’t like men.

‘But still…feels like my heart was just ripped out.’ Pulling back from the door, Logan looked around the room. ‘Of course…’ He muttered in irritation. ‘The one room I find to hole up in happens to be a library, somewhere Charles always liked to go.’ Sighing heavily he moved over to the couch and flopped face down, trying to fall asleep and push his feelings into the dark corner of his mind.

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Charles located where Logan was, and quickly made his way there. He knocked on the door first, receiving no answer he tried the knob only to find it locked. “Logan?” He questioned, frowning deeply. “I know you’re in there, can I come in?”

“No.” Came his response through the door.

“Why not?” He asked, confused at the icy tone of his friend’s voice.

“I don’t want to see you.” He snapped angrily, moving from the couch to place his head against the door. Charles felt as if he’d been slapped. ‘I…oh damn! Moira must have been wrong…what am I supposed to do now!!’ He thought desperately, feeling a wave of despair run through his body. ‘I just realized I have feelings for him, but even though Moira thought he felt the same, he doesn’t!! Not with that attitude.’ Swallowing hard, he thrust his feelings for the older man to the back of his mind.

“I see, sorry to have disturbed you Logan.” He said so softly, Logan had to strain his ears to hear him. “I’ll just be going now.” Logan was trying so hard not to ask him to stay and failed to notice the hurt and disappointment in Charles’ voice as he headed down the hall back to the infirmary. Logan trembled against the door, jaw clenched hard as his fingers dug into the wood. ‘I can’t give in…he doesn’t like me that way…’ He then buried himself in the couch, falling into a restless sleep.

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Charles fought the wracking hurt that threatened to overwhelm him. ‘God!! How could I think he’d like me the same!? He must have realized what he did with me earlier and is feeling ashamed. But how could Moira be wrong? It seems like Logan liked me more than just a friend, so what happened?’ With that thought racing in his head he tried to fall asleep.

tbc

So? What do you think? Please review! Don’t worry, I’m working on the next chapter before the rest of my stories and it will be longer than this one!!