No More Tears

While Asma was taking her shower, ororo talked to Jean who informed Charles Xavier about the pink haired lady decision. He decided to mentally call everyone and to have them meeting at the living rom. Asma Growled. it was so soon.. but Prof X was right. She had to tell everyone her story. Logan too growled not wanting to know more about the "sweet Victor" but in a way he was curious so, silentely he walked trhough the hall to the living room wearing his jean and a white shirt. puting a lovely short yellow dress, Asma went down. Hard and curious looks were set upon her and shrugging, the beautiful black woman braced herself.

"Welcome everyone.. I.. I'm glad you're all here.."

"You're so nervous darling.. don't want to sit down a little bit?" offered the purple haired ninja

"No thanks Betsy, it would be better if I stay up."

"you can go through Asma, we're all listening to you." said the prof. She nodded and with a trembling voice, the young girl said.

"let's begin by the first day you met" proposed Kitty, eyes widely opened ready to hear anything her friend had to say.

"ok...(takes a deep breath) I'll tell you everything. I hope you'll understand me better. sigh!..two years ago I was running from the dead place.. my house had become.. I was afraid (gulps).. I was alone.. didn't hear about the X-Men nor Xavier's institute before. My.. monster was haunting me.. and.. and I.. I met Magneto..(pause)"

Her quivering eyes were looking at the crowd before her. Asma didn't know how to keep going, feeling a great discomfort but the tender gaze of Charles helped her to straigthen herself.

"He..(breathing hard) helped me.. took me into his Brotherhood.. his.. family.. and.. and he introduced me to .. Victor.. the first time we saw each other, Victor sniffed me all around. (light smiles on her lips and the others were beginning to feel easier) He tried to memorize my smell.. hum.. Victor didn't say anything that time.. no he just growled but later he told me that.. my smell was nice.. (Logan snorts) we didn't really talk.. for a time but I felt his hard gaze on me.. I knew he was studying me.. (another pause)"

"So the beginnings weren't that good if I dare say?" asked a very interrested Jean. In fact they were so curious about how a damn criminal and bloodthirsty as Creed could actually have fallen in love with Asma.. and she.. what was attracting her to him? Asma nodded.

"yes.. it was a very slow move.. we did a lot of missions together..you know, the first time I saw Creed, I thought he was just a bastard! actually he was, even with women. We had a hard time getting closer. You know...He mocked me lot at the beginning but as time went by he stoped that.. almost giving me some respect.. I know it sounds crazy, but I guess it was because I didn't fear him. I never did, even the first time I saw him.. yes.. maybe it was what drove him to me.. but I definitely earned his respect he day I saved his life."

"you saved.. his life?" asked a very shocked Scott. well it wasn't a hard thing to imagine.. but this frail woman, saving Creed and he.. not killing her back from that humiliation? how possible?

"Yes.. again.. that wasn't planned.. He was so damn confident..almost too cocky.. and we were fighting against a girl who could manipulate water.. he had his head caught in a big water bubble.. but I had noticed that girl who was hiding herself and I knocked her down with my telekinesic powers. He.. after that day things changed a lot between the two of us.. Victor said I had messed his heart, his mind and his body.. you know.. we were aware of that sexual tension between the two of us.. he was attracted to me at first sight.. and I was too.. I loved his way to be free, wild and powerful.. I loved his way to be some kind of rustic and his naughtyness (Logan's ears become red and he snorts louder) and he had a side.. he didn't show.. at all.. when there was someone else.. but he opened up to me. he'd been abused as a child.. never knew anything more than violence, blood, humiliation.. he'd been craving for tenderness.. love.. he'd been craving for being treated like a man and not only a beast.. and.. and I was soothing him.. he didn't know why..I didn't know either.. but we were fine together.. we became lovers.. we made love.. he was caring but not lovey-dovey.. he did his best not to hurt me.. and managed to be gentle with me.. yes. he was my first.. and that wasn't horrible at all."

they were speechless.. looking at her with confused looks. they didn't want to believe in her story.. and even Jean checked her mind in order to be sure she wasn't lying.. but Asma was only telling the naked truth and that was just amazing! they were suspended on her full brown lips, never wanting her to stop talking.. well only Logan who was between pure rage and great curiousity wanted her to stop babling so positively about that scum! his low voice echoed and he said without being able to restrain his mouth.

"Can't believe ya darlin', how could he ever be gentle?"

"Love Logan.. he was in love with me.. Victor stayed the same with the others, we trusted each other.; we really loved each other!"

"umbelievable sugah!!! this man? a lover?" broke Marie, really amazed by her story.. there was a lot to come but just that part was too much to bear for them.

" I won't be ashamed of that love darling.. He was the first real man, I loved, not a teen affair.. a real love between a man and a woman. he took care of me.. protected me.. loved me.."

"And (Angry Logan) why did this "paradisiac love" ended? if he was so perfect why did ya leave?" Asma growled shoting a dark glare to him.

"Don''t Shout! Don't Shout!!! I decided to go! I saw the truth in Magnus methods and I hated the killing, the hate he bears for human kind! I hated the evil things he did... but I'm still loving him. as a father.. he's just lost.. just completely lost.. but.. I couldn't stand all of that!"

"And yer charming prince didn't like it. Did he cry when he knew ya were against?" Mocked the feral mutant.

"Logan! Stop that! she's telling her story! don't disturb her!" Yelled Jean. if Logan began like that he would make the beautiful black woman so mad that it would mess up things.. Asma would loose her mind.

"Telling what? My ass! it's just bullshit! she was afraid o'this ol'scum! She was (almost yelling) like she's afraid o'me!!"

"That's WRONG!!!!! you're stubborn!! you little stubborn and angry man! you know nothing! Nothing about Victor! you're angry because I Loved HIM!!! you're afraid because of what he did to you and you think he doesn't deserve that! you're jealous and angry! but you're wrong!!! I'm not afraid of YOU and I wasn't afraid of HIM! never WAS! never WILL BE!!" She was yelling her pain.

"I sense yer fear darlin" ya can't lie t'me!" He growled to her but she spat loudly! almost crying her heart out!

" It's not about what he did to me when he discovered I was running!! it wasn't for what I saw in his eyes when Victor saw I was running away.. I never was afraid of him.. even when He RAPED me! that was a cold bloody night and he was coming back from a mission covered in blood and almost wild! oh.. he went berserk when he saw I was leaving him..we argued.. he was so mad.. so hurt.. He did the only thing he was used to.. to soothe his pain.. I had broken his heart! I had killed him INSIDE! oh Logan you could say whatever you want but never I was afraid of him.. now you're glad? It's out! finally out!! Thanks for the shame!"

and she runned away. leaving the crew shocked and silent! there were too many informations.. yes Creed and her were in love.. yes she left the Brotherhood because she found the truth.. but She'd been raped! that was just a horrible new.. it wasn't that from Creed that was strange.. but.. he'd raped his lover.. besides.. he'd raped their friend.. she didn't deserve that.. they were mixed between burning rage, tears, confusion, sadness.. disgust..Creed became a real monster in their eyes.. but they were worried... for Asma.. how could she cope with that? five months without telling anything? Logan was more than upset. growling loudly, he left the room chasing for Asma. Guilt! Anger! Guilt! Kill Creed! Kill!!!! this new was driving him wild but he wanted to see that girl.. he needed to see her. The youg woman was standing in the garden, looking at the sky.

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A/N : yes.. Victor did something really bad.. but in a way.. I didn't want to completely pictured him as a complete asshole.. well.. not taking his side too..after all he's still a bastard!!!